Look, Listen, Observe, and finally Learn..

In order to learn one thing, i feel like i need to sacrifice a lot of me. Not only from the Education stand point but also from other aspects in life like friendships and people in general. The hardest part, for me, is to understand others. I've been trying to be nice, understanding, humble, n i must admit sometimes bitchy but in my opinion some ppl are better to be treated that way..*oopps* My behavior was mistaken a lot by others for some reasons n little that they know i don't give a damn..hehehe cus in my life i've learned not to trust a lot of ppl but ur own family n very few others, that's why i have a lot of friends but very very few bestfriends (Inta, Cuha, Monica, Danis, Saras, Annie, Wiwid). my mom actually told me that as a family we are in the same team, so we work together. if someone hurt one member of our team; then we r going to b there for each other. i first never really cared about it, i thought its just dumb, i thought friends would b there for me too. However, something happened about 5 years ago n it changes my point of few forever. Here is a little background of what happened. My dad was a successful banker n a very honest one, life was never been better. I could get pretty much what i wanted. We as a family travelled all over the world. Everybody was sucking up to us, they literately would wipe our feet if we asked them too. N then the life cycle hits, u know the one that ppl cant b on the top forever, then everybody leaves us, those ppl who we thought would have our back forever left us, even our own driver, a man who we hired to drive our cars, leaves us *thank God we have 2 drivers* duhhhh... our security guards, they r gone... everybody is trying to safe their own ass. Up to this day my family still doesn't know what is it we did that so bad. even the authority couldn't point out. well i guess it's just life cus w/o this experience i would never be so close to my family as i am now and i would still think that friends were everything. moreover, b/c of this experience i've learned that there r so many fakers in this world that have an angelic appearance n since 5 yrs ago i never really trust others cus they will leave me when they dont need me anymore. N here is what i learn: One cant say that they have a friend till sth bad unexpectedly struck cus a friend would stay during that time. trust me very few will, it's my personal xperience.. 

OOOOOO HELLL NOOOOOO!!!!

i must admit i'm a bit judgemental when it comes to new people.. i tend to judge a book by its cover sometimes... n something just bugging me so much about a person... i think "he" is sth that he's not... but i'm still trying to gather some facts cus rite now my judgement is solely based on what i've seen in pictures.. so i can really open up about what actually bugs me... i hope that my judgement is false cus it'll b sucked.. i don't wanna crush someone's hopes at all... anyways i'll keep it posted...